Saturday, April 12, 2008

Emotional wreck

Okay, so I'm feeling like I am the worst mother on earth. Things have been so crazy and hectic with trying to clean and pack up the apartment here in Horgen and trying to mentally prepare for the flight to Georgia next week for Rachel's wedding, until I feel like I have been neglecting my children. Mea has become super clingy, and Lily has started this high-pitched screaming thing that is driving me nuts. They both have been 'acting out', and I am convinced that it is due to my being so preoccupied with all that is going on. Mea wants to know if we are going to move back to Horgen after we live in Georgia for a few years; she also wants to know why we have to sell so much of our stuff; she has also starting waking up during the night and even wetting the bed occasionally. I know that it will all work out and that she really won't remember all of this, but it gets me down some days and makes me feel terrible about all the changes going on at once.

Then I remind myself that God is in control. He knows all about our international move. He knows all about Mea's fears and concerns. He knows about the condo in Atlanta that we would like to sell. He knows about it all........as a matter of fact, He has known about it all for quite a long time, and He has the privilege of knowing how it all comes together. I don't have that insight into the future, but I do have faith that God loves me and works all things out for His good in my life. So I guess the best I can do right now is to pray and trust that God is at work in my life, and I have to just follow His leading one day at a time.

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